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Post by Forceuser on Aug 12, 2021 23:21:31 GMT
I have had a lot of dynamics change in my life in the last few weeks. I will not give any excuses for not. Obtaining my goal. I guess if I would have said the goal a little easier I would have completed it. But I have to say this has given me more endurance. I went down to 215 then backup to 220 I will stay my course. Until I have completed this physical goal to you... A lot of other things have been happening but I am pushing those things out of my life. I am the master of my life. And I take responsibility for what happens...
OK One thing that did happen to me. Over a week a ago.i saw a strong vision a friends wife that I know there life or soul would be taken from them..... I did not reach out or try to help in any way.. I knew I could have changed the course of history easily.... But I decided to wash my hands yet wash my hands off these things and tell myself they are not real and I could not have changed anything... Soon I will start working on one of my goals to help other people. Later I will break it down into steps and plan of actions that are measurable
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Post by VixensVengeance on Aug 13, 2021 5:25:23 GMT
There is a lot to process here. Where did you start and what was your original goal? Why did you fail to meet that goal? Was it because you set to high a standard? Part of this path is knowing thy self. Did you lie to yourself that you could meet this goal or did you lie to yourself that you could not meet this goal? If you are a driven person embrace your drive. If you are a lazy person embrace your laziness. This is knowing and, even more importantly, accepting yourself and then embracing your nature.
As for your dream, what specifically was revealed? How would they be taken? Do you have knowledge of an illness you are not revealing or of other difficulties? If you can't specifically define the time, place and method of her demise it must be dismissed as coincidence.
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Post by Forceuser on Aug 13, 2021 14:49:02 GMT
I will have to answer this in 2 parts 1st part 1st part on my weight loss I believe I started at 230 and today I am at 218 so I lost 12 pounds.... It's a little frustrating because I did get down to 215 and plateaued there. Did I set the goal to high it was a little ambitious of me. I think if I could have stayed extremely focused I would have been OK... Not to get too deep but I think I am struggling with deep down core beliefs I am believes I am not worthy.... And it seems like I purposely sabotage myself Subconsciously to prove to myself I'm not worthy. I'm still working on knowing myself because it seems like I have gone through extremes in my life. I think I may have lied to myself that I could not do it.. I guess that's the persona me or The shadow me I am working to overcome.
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Post by Forceuser on Aug 13, 2021 15:41:06 GMT
OK the 2nd part is going to be hard to explain. I will try to keep it brief because I don't want to derail this thread. Plus and you know some of my stories are hard to believe anyway. I have forgotten most of the stories and things that have happened to me in my life because there are so many of them. To be up front with you and as honest as possible Since December I have been paying out of my pocket to see counseling counselor/Christian therapist A few times a week and also For my family To help them and keep everyone together... And I'm trying to get away as far as possible from Paranormal activity physical and spirits and and any type of force... jedi powers or whatever you want to call it.... I just want to live a normal life. Most of the time I'm very strong and can push those things away and stay focused on the here and now in physical world and achieving goals and living a happy life. But other times it seems to come over me. It's happened my whole life so I think I've just accepted it as normal number no my therapist is helping me realize that's not normal. I think I must have gotten part of that passed down from my mother We never talked about it but I know she had super crazy experience with the The ouija board And I know she was empathic and could feel spirits But I think she was afraid of those things not like me unlike me what time we're walking in the woods and she got scared because of a spirit and turned around and took a picture of one. And a month or so later when we got the film developed it was sure enough a white spirit in the form of a person Very clear. And of course all The Times I saw physical and Spirit ghosts. And one time what seemed like months I kept getting these 3 scratches continually continually on me from my chest to my belly to my thighs what seemed like for months. Sorry back to my story I was just trying to give you a small small backdrop. OK back to this story it wasn't really a dream because what happens periodically periodically is I'm in the middle of work are driving or whatever and it's like I'm going to some type of trance where I can't see out of my eyes all I can see is everything is black like I'm in a room and then and very clear I'll see whatever It is normally it's attached to very strong Is emotions and images. Sometimes it doesn't happen for years or it'll happen every month or sometimes it happens a few times a week it all depends... OK this person Is a friend I grew up with as a kid and he saw crazy physical things happen He's the one who had the force or Holy Spirit whatever you call itTell and do things for me and hes the one who it's the 1 who saw the soccer ball andis the soccer ball incident where I kicked in 1 direction it stopped in mid air and went like a laser beam a 150 to 200' in the opposite direction to break out his window in his house. He's a pastor doctor that travels the world helping other countries and teaching people. About a month ago he sent he sent me a text message saying about the different flights he was going on And later I asked him about if he remembered some of the incidents that happened when we were kids Because there was more to some of the stories because at the time when we were kids I never told anybody I knew anything about but these things that happened. And I know he was afraid of these things and just did not want to talk about it but it bothered me and about a year ago he was on the speaker phone and told my family Yes all these things happened and he could not explain any of it. Sorry about that OK fast forward to Last Wednesday he sent me a text saying that yet in that with this pneumonia virus his doctor said people go up-and-down like a roller coaster and he wanted me to keep his wife in prayer Because one minute they're doing great then the next day there not they go up-and-down. Then soon after That's when I had this trance I went into and saw Her life energy would be Taken from her starting on Saturday and she would pass away and that he would have to go the rest of his life hurt hurting on this weekend because that's his birthday and that would be his struggle in life. He would have to overcome. That night my family prayed for him but I did not feel it in my heart or soul To help him because I know I could have healed field and sent her healing energy. But I'm putting all those things away like that therapist wants me to and leave it in let's call it the universe or God's hands.. So I did I thought let's see all these hundreds of thousands of people praying for him how that will change the outcome of his wife's life.... I even sent a text message to my therapist/counselor If she could pray for him because I know she's a very strong woman faith... And I wanted to see if all of these people put together could change in any way her outcome that I saw and felt. And I told that therapist I washed my hands of it and i didn't want to be responsible or involved.. So later on I found out what happened on Saturday was her body would not accept any oxygen at all And of course she would die hours later... I'm always trying to push these things away things away saying they are not real and it's just a coincidence. Last Thursday I went to look at a new car I wanted the based model S UV The dealership said they only had the high end models others they haven't seen any baseball's come in months and months and months and months and they had no idea and doubt they would see one... Same thing I went into a small trance and saw a white base model S UV would come in that night and he would call me in the morning saying wow you're not going to believe it one came in. So after my trance I told the salesman elsman who knows I'm pretty lucky you may call me tomorrow as if to mock him. And he calls me 1st thing in the morning and leaves a message you won't believe it a car came in just like you Wanted.... So here I am telling myself those things are not important and not real and just a coincidence. I hope this story makes sense because I'm just talking into my phone and sending it
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Post by Forceuser on Aug 16, 2021 1:24:33 GMT
OK let me get focused and I'm going to keep trying until I ultimately succeed at my end goal. I'm at 220 right now I give myself 30 days to drop 10 pounds to 210 pounds. From there I will reevaluate and continue... I do have other small goals I'm attempting right now but this is one that I need to do for multiple reasons. I'm still learning more about fear and overcoming it in every aspect of my life
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Post by VixensVengeance on Aug 16, 2021 18:02:52 GMT
OK let me get focused and I'm going to keep trying until I ultimately succeed at my end goal. I'm at 220 right now I give myself 30 days to drop 10 pounds to 210 pounds. From there I will reevaluate and continue... I do have other small goals I'm attempting right now but this is one that I need to do for multiple reasons. I'm still learning more about fear and overcoming it in every aspect of my life
This is the answer I was waiting to hear. Good for you. Never give up. Remember that failure is a powerful tool to get to know yourself. Challenge yourself and, fail or succeed, you will learn. Keep in mind that the shadow self is not something to overcome but to integrate into your life. It is a part of you that cant be denied. It is half of your true self. Learn to listen to it and it will guide you well.
The shadow is the part of ourselves that does not know boundaries, only desire. It wants what it wants and cant be denied. It is the inspiration behind the passion and the catalyst to act. Use it to your advantage but balance it with your civilized self or it will consume you. It is the wild wolf hungry for the rabbit hopping in the field, but the wolf also knows that patience and perseverance and not mindless pursuit will win the day.
Keep in mind that perseverance is different than persistence as well. Persistence is mindless, perseverance allows us to adjust our course as we learn to better achieve the goal. So the question now becomes, how will you adjust your course based on what you have learned to allow you to achieve your goal? I look forward to your progress!
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Post by VixensVengeance on Aug 16, 2021 18:27:14 GMT
So I did I thought let's see all these hundreds of thousands of people praying for him how that will change the outcome of his wife's life.... I even sent a text message to my therapist/counselor If she could pray for him because I know she's a very strong woman faith... And I wanted to see if all of these people put together could change in any way her outcome that I saw and felt. And I told that therapist I washed my hands of it and i didn't want to be responsible or involved.. So later on I found out what happened on Saturday was her body would not accept any oxygen at all And of course she would die hours later...
So if she had lived would you have believed the prayers you said worked? Do you see how you have set yourself up so you cant fail?
She dies, the vision comes true,
She lives, the prayers worked.
It is worse than coincidence it is confirmation bias.
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Post by Forceuser on Aug 16, 2021 21:03:15 GMT
I understand your point of view. I guess it's partly true. When I said I washed my hands a bit I really did. I didn't want anything to do with that . my fake prayer was only with lip service because someone asked me to do that for them. If she would have been healed I would have thought i finally found a vision that did not come true and all this is fake. And made up in my head. Because I guess are mines can see what we tell it to see and not see the things we tell it not to.
Of course all the physical things that other people saw I don't know what to say about that. that is another topic But I guess the most important thing is that we Have love and faith and believe in what we're doing is good. Because we are the master of our lives and control our own destiny
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Post by VixensVengeance on Aug 16, 2021 22:49:00 GMT
I understand your point of view. I guess it's partly true. When I said I washed my hands a bit I really did. I didn't want anything to do with that . my fake prayer was only with lip service because someone asked me to do that for them. If she would have been healed I would have thought i finally found a vision that did not come true and all this is fake. And made up in my head. Because I guess are mines can see what we tell it to see and not see the things we tell it not to. Of course all the physical things that other people saw I don't know what to say about that. that is another topic But I guess the most important thing is that we Have love and faith and believe in what we're doing is good. Because we are the master of our lives and control our own destiny Once again you engage in confirmation bias. You have already had a vision that failed. Do you remember our controlled experiment? You failed to identify any of the objects I placed on my desk. And I will not accept an answer that "it was different somehow". Either you can see the unseen or you cannot. Future or distance makes no difference.
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Post by Forceuser on Aug 17, 2021 1:05:20 GMT
Then I must be bias.i concede. I will work on being more open minded and that things might not be like i interpret them.
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Post by VixensVengeance on Aug 17, 2021 1:42:04 GMT
Then I must be bias.i concede. I will work on being more open minded and that things might not be like i interpret them. I feel like you have just given up here. I don't want you to concede out of some sense of authority or frustration. I want you to truly examine your position and explore it from an objective point of view. Did you fail in our Experiment? If you did why? And in this examination I want you to truly admit to yourself the possibility of a difficult truth. How does that affect your worldview? What does your worldview look like that is absent of these beliefs? What will you do with this? This self examination is truly facing the shadow inside, and stripping yourself of your self imposed armor
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Post by Forceuser on Aug 17, 2021 16:31:45 GMT
That is deep and with multiple questions I will have to break this down in a few messages. One question was about a difficult truth I think in my life now I'm at a point where I can accept that I that I can be wrong or misled or i could be deceived less call it By either people or some force outside of this world ... I was able to do it to a few other people many years ago. And I do not consider myself very powerfulBecause if I was I would be able to do whatever I willed at all times and just not sporadically. So I feel for sure there must be some immense force or power that can deceive the whole world So that we feel like this game or hologram is real.. I don't know of many more options that it could be considering when people are able to defy by the basic laws of nature and gravity as we know them or apparent normal happens how can that be explained in this world Except all is not as it seems or we have been taught in school... Growing up I was immensely sensitive to things around me and yesterday and terrified of men and this world. And when paranormal things would happen or Other things that were let's call it unnatural or spiritual in nature I would question very deeply how is these things possible. And run from them and hide telling anyone about it deep inside of my soul. I was more afraid than you know but I also knew there had to be another people on this world that experienced things like me. And yes in a way it was comforting when periodically I would have people around me see and experience things They might have been scared. But at least I was comforted that at least I knew it wasn't just in my head and I was crazy. Yes sometimes I get scared of other people knowing who I am. And knowing the things I say are true. Because I know every time I've done something I can feel there's other people that can feel And sense it Most of the time I am very scared of that that's why I was looking for a mentor to help me. A few times I was not scared Of other people with power and I did thirst To hurt them because I could feel and see their energy It was dark and only to hurt people and control them in fear.
OK when you ask me to do something it challenged me It put me on the spot and I was afraid I thought I did not want attention on me Most of the time I am afraid of people Looking at me Even if it were to be a special different or different or weird or scary or abnormal or a freak. All my life I just wanted to be normal and live a normal life. I try my best not to lie or deceive people But everything I said at the temple of the jedi order was true. I may sabotage a test Now and then but I do not try to hurt people... I'm trying to grow and control my fears
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Post by VixensVengeance on Aug 17, 2021 22:48:57 GMT
This is actually not that deep. You are over complicating it. Its simple, there is no grand force in the world, there is just the world and it is a world we do not have control of no matter how much we wish it was the case. You have to learn to let go of this idea of control and realize the only thing you can control is your own actions. No one is deceiving you but yourself. This is where your power is going, into this self deceit.
You constantly set yourself up in this way so that you can confirm these biases as I just described above. Yet again you use another excuse in our experiment that you were afraid and so you failed. That is total bullshit. You have once again justified a reason why on this particular occasion this ability you claim to have failed. Can you see that? The truth of the matter is that you do not have any special power or ability and you never have. I'm glad you are seeking counseling in this area as well. Trust what they tell you and even consider taking it one step further to getting a diagnosis by a qualified professional in mental health services and possible medication. There is no shame in this. Just try it and see what the results are. I think you will find a new realm of possibilities you have never imagined before.
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Post by Forceuser on Aug 18, 2021 5:17:38 GMT
You are so right... What is funny A couple 100 years ago people would be labeled as witches for doing witchcraft and be burnt at the stake If they saw physical things move or manifest.... Today you would just be put on medication and labeled crazy....... 4 thousands of years before that you would be labeled as a prophet or a seer. Or any power from the other gods or moloch..it's interesting how we grow in our knowledge... Who knows maybe in another 100 years there are 100 years science will prove Adams can be in 2 places at the same time Something like quantum whatever And that everything is made up of energy and and can be controlled by the heart emotions and thoughts combined.. And be able to prove that there is thought matter that makes up the universe.... I'm still trying to get people To show me how how it's physically or scientifically possible it's scientifically possible the things that all these people have seen..... Yet how are these things possible that defy gravity and science and space and time... Everyone keeps saying there must be a reasonable explanation but nobody has one.... I guess everyone's too smart to figure out there might be more to the universe than they know but they're way too smart to see it... And I am not so stuck on myself I do not seek Wisdom and answers from others I do... It's possible that everything I say and see is made up and all in my head.. But how is it that 2 or 3 other people at the same time see and experience the same thing?.... What's the odds of 2 or 3 people seeing the same thing made up in their head and physically change things how is that possible? Is it some kind of mass delusion??? Could be the oxygen levels at that particular place was so low that people had delusions of the same thing at the same time? I guess the only thing real is the things we accomplish... OK I can buy that . That's something Like I was telling my kids the other day. I was telling them to work hard and accomplish their goals. I was showing them some of my education after I got out of the army. I showed them I always was working a full time job even when I was going through the sheriff's Academy at the same time I was finishing up my college automotive degrees certificates I showed them also look at the same time I was Earning my real estate license and contractor license. I have much bigger goals now and will put aside but aside my crazy bride and delusional shadow self and get focus back on what I can control with my strength and primary weapon.
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Post by VixensVengeance on Aug 18, 2021 21:28:28 GMT
I believe we have had this conversation before so I will be brief. There are well documented and scientifically sound reasons for all of these things you describe. And even though the burden of proof is not on me but on you, the claimant, I have shown you those before. You just seem to ignore them however. I have said this before and it still stands. If you can show me any proof of any of these claims I would concede my position. This has to be through direct observable controlled experiment however. Anything short of this is not and never will be acceptable. Excuses why this evidence cant be shown will also not be acceptable. I dont know what else to say beyond that.
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