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Post by VixensVengeance on May 26, 2021 3:49:59 GMT
When you say your scared of not being in control what exactly are you scared of not being in control of? Why does it scare you to not be in control of that or those things?
Why do these powerful entities frighten you? Why do you feel that not bring in control of them gives them the power to manipulate your mind? Do you feel that because you are not in control of them you will also lose control of your own mind? Why have you linked these two areas together so completely that loss of control of one automatically means loss of control of the other?
Tell me exactly what it is both within and without that you truly possess control over.
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Post by Forceuser on May 26, 2021 16:12:55 GMT
This is going to be challenging to get out on paper so to speak... For example when I was younger And one time I stopped breathing and had an out of body experience And Later for example if I went to this Place in my mind I would think it was just a safe place to go ... As time went on I realised in that place everything I wanted to happen orsaw would physically take place A few seconds later... For me anyway I know there's a big difference between reality day dreaming and this place... It Always scared me because my parents and society would teach any paranormal thing is from the devil.... So I would take those I guess Feelings or experiences and push them deep deep inside me and lock them in a chest never to come out or go visit that place again.. And life would be crystal clear you can plan your day your week your month and experience life with great feeling and Passion... I would rarely visit that place in the chest I locked away and if I did go there and something Physically impossible would happen that people would see or experience I would quickly close the door and lock it away... For me anyway If I Stay in that place too long my goals and ambitions in this physical reality diminishes money power all these things Are not important and hold no value even family and friends... This last year it was like a magnet was drawing me back to that chest that I locked away So for about a year I guess and a 1/2 I kept visiting this place I had too many experiences to talk about... And some of the emotions were so far off the chart I could not believe it... One question you had was being in 2 places at the same time for example I can only call it your physical body is in 1 place and some type of let's call it energy or spirit self can be somewhere else at the same time.... Of course at the time I was emotionally worked up but but I did an experiment on someone without telling them they were about 2000 miles away I wanted to prove to them And myself even though I had done it before that the spirit itself could physically do things thousands of miles away the distance does not matter... So I wanted to bruise and hurt this person so I could physically prove to them that it was possible This person got physically hurt more it could hurt more than I originally planned because the feelings and emotions to prove to them It was possible And some other emotions I had got carried away and they got physically hurt physically hurt Pretty bad... And that had always been my greatest fear that someone would physically be hurt by this energy or force or whatever you want to call it... So I was very scared for quite a few months .... Then a few times I purposely wanted to hunt down other spirits or entities and humiliate them.... I did do this by forcing them in one spot and putting pressure on them That they could not move. Believe it or not this If bothers a spirit immensely that they are not in control and they are under extreme pressure so when I let them go they are more than happy to flee.... As As far as proof I have none except Numerous people can say they were healed physically hurt or physically saw things move or heard the banging on the doors walls or windows I made to startle them.. As a prank or a joke And they were not physically near me.... The challenge I have now is before I could lock the door on that chest and never think about it for long periods of time and go on with my life pursuing my goals and passions but now it's like a magnet drawing me to it and I'm afraid of that because I have no control Like I used to to lock it away for long long periods of time... At times I felt very strong and there's nothing I could not do And sometimes I could feel and see in the minds minds of others and even look out of their eyes and see and feel everything that they were seeing and feeling And I could put things in their mind that I wanted them to feel and see. I did this in times past to a few police officers a army sergeant And in the mind of a karate master as I was in a full contact fight with him. I haven't done it very much but I know it's possible... So now I'm worried maybe someone's doing that to me And that's why I can't get Focused on my dreams and goals right now and I can't push And close that door on that chest and push it far down in my soul inside..... I know it sounds crazy I wouldn't believe it myself I've tried to deny it's even possible my whole life I only believe its real because I have so many other people with eye witnesses.. What do I have control of I can see overtime as I work I can enjoy some of the pleasures and fruits of my work. The other day I did realise I was gaining control over my self When I started to only Focus on the here and now. And start setting my goals Of course to make it work you have to have focus like a laser beam
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Post by VixensVengeance on May 26, 2021 22:31:43 GMT
You stopped breathing and had an out of body experience? How do you know?
what is this special place in your mind? Where is this place? How do you know you are there? What does this even mean?
Paranormal things are from the devil? Like making water into wine? Raising the dead? Walking on water? Is Jesus the devil?
How do you "lock a place" in your mind? Can you describe this process?
Can you show me that you can physically hurt me? We have tried something similar before with objects on my desk and you failed to describe any of them. So why should I believe This?
Can you put something in my mind? Honestly I would love to try this experiment. Put something in my mind at a specific time and then later tell me the time and the thing you placed there.
Finally could there be another explanation for these things you think you are experiencing? Confirmation bias? Delusion? Filling in the gap? Corporeal explanation? Coincidence?
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Post by Forceuser on May 27, 2021 15:52:24 GMT
These are good questions and a lot of questions. I will have to answer them in segments I'm going to keep them super super simple answers without getting too detailed on things... On one experience when I was a kid I'm not sure I was probably around 6 . I was kicked so hard in the stomach I stopped breathing and after a while I collapsed to the floor in a Foetil position. I guess it was My spirit or consciousness raised out of my body and went about 20' or so in the air and now I am looking down at my body and my friend leaning over me it's like I could see all the walls of the house but with no ceiling or roof... I will always try to keep my story short not getting in to too much detail feelings or emotions. But I thought to myself wow Nobody's going to believe this happened to me so I thought how can I prove this actually happened and I saw his mother and sister in one of the rooms in the far part of the house and I thought what I'll do is go next to them and listen to what they're saying And as soon as I thought that the next thing I know I am like 1' away from both of their faces listening to their conversation and they were talking about some jewellery and ironing the clothes Then I thought this is perfect now I can prove that this actually happened Then it was like now I'm back inside my body and a few moments later I started to gag and cough and gasp for air and after about 5 minutes of me getting my ear back I told my friend what happened and of course he did not believe me so he immediately went to the other part of the house to ask his mom And when he came back he had A shocked expression on his face and said that was impossible there's no way I could have known that. Just a side note from my personal experience With the paranormal things and trying to find out the big question why? I've come to the conclusion almost every story I've ever heard has one common denominator that's a kid roughly between the ages of 6 and 13 and whether they know it or not they are very highly sensitive impathic kids. And it seems like they draw these spirits or entities like a magnet. That's just my personal opinion... It's OK not to get too religious on this topic at the moment but is Jesus the devil? In my opinion I would say absolutely yes a absolutely yes he is the morning star which is always referred to as the devil the tempter the one who by his miracles has deceived the whole world That is too deep a topic If you believe all the stories.
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Post by Forceuser on May 27, 2021 16:24:47 GMT
This place in my mind is going to be very difficult to explain.... It's like with our eyes open we all live in the here and now walking driving our car working everything is clear and real. And we have input From our eyes ears smell and touch... Then let's call it your imagination what you're thinking of something and for me that's more of A2D picture you see in your mind if maybe you're thinking of a car or whatever...Let's call that the thinking imagination day dream or whatever you want to call it.. The last place is what I call the dark Room .... Things are much different there it feels like if you can imagine you're in a basement with no windows and in the basement you go inside a Room that is about 10' by 10' wide and you go inside and close the door with no lights... I don't know how to describe it but this Room It feels like it has thought and emotion all around it ... I don't go there very often if I can it's like I only go there When I'm super focused like a laser and it seems like when somehow I'm emotionally slightlyStressed I guess you would call it. ... And if I am let's call it wide awake or driving or running or whatever it's like I must go into some super deep trance because that's the only thing I can see and feel Whether it's people or places For example one time I wanted to play a prank and startl someone so I just saw my hand on the outside of the house knocking on the kitchen window 3 times. Then a moment later I'm back in my body sitting on the couch and here 3 knocks on the kitchen window to startle the person in the kitchen late at night. Of course it startled the person and scared them and of course they freaked out . At the time we lived on 5 acres and of course there were no footprints outside by the window and if there was someone there are dogs always barks crazy when anything is around and the dog did not bark. Yes could it Be delusional or coincidental absolutely......
A quick story on I don't know what to call it except some type of voice or force or whatever Every once in a great while I will mock or not believe these things are possible. For example If one morning this force or voice told me I was going to receive a particular item that day And I said to myself I'm going to prove all of these things are impossible and I'm going to make sure I'm never going to receive that particular object. OK I will tell you the object it was a Bible at the time. My friend invited me to a Big Bible meeting that night we went and toward the end of the service the pastor stopped and froze for a minute and then said Someone here Was to receive a Bible today and you know who you are so raise your hand and this continued for about 5 minutes he said I will not and cannot continue the service until this person has this and they know who they are.... And of course I was embarrassed and defiant to prove and mock I would never receive this.. Yet then my friend had a glazed look in his eyes without blinking quietly raised his sand motionless and they came and gave him The Bible he never blinked or looked at me once. Once we left and got in the car he told me to pull over he said that this force told him he was to take The Bible and give it to me because I knew I was the one who was supposed to receive it. Coincidence could be. A group of people all forgot to take their drugs on the same day yes it could be.. One time I even asked for a mole to disappear If these things were real and the next day it was gone. Made up delusion yes it's possible I thought about that a lot The part that bugs me the most is that other people either experience it or see objects move or some type of spirit energy that manifests in the physical in the physical Or whatever
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Post by Forceuser on May 27, 2021 16:40:12 GMT
Putting thoughts into others minds.. I've only done this a handful of times or so.I'm no professional at anything.
One time our whole company Went for training so they quickly piled us into this old Bus I thought it would be funny to play a prank on The dril sergeant in the vehicle behind us... Same thing I'm going to some type of super deep trance in this dark Room And the next thing I know I'm actually In the vehicle looking out of the sergeant's eyes I can see everything the - the steering will the driver that he was talking with everything it's like I'm inside of him looking out of his eyes I can feel and hear everything he is thinking. So I thought I'm going to prank him so as hes looking at the bus in his eyes I make him see a hand stick out the windowAnd I clearly made him see my face in his thoughts and image... Fast forward they open the door to the bus and of course you have a 100 people piling out running as fast as they can to get out of the Bus He's just standing outside the bus and as soon as I run down the stairs he stops me pulls me to the side and and Demands why I put my hand out the window... Of course I deny it because I was not even physically close enough to put my hand out the window even if I wanted to. And I'm thinking how is it even possible to know who it is all you can see is someone's fingers And hand because we all have the exact same camouflage uniform on. Of course that could be coincidence also. Of course many times if you think is something in your mind or imagine something it's wrong quite often but every time I've gone to that dark Room it's never been wrong ever .... So I am searching for answers also... Why???
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Post by VixensVengeance on May 27, 2021 19:45:26 GMT
There is a lot of information here and it does generate a lot of questions. For example why did you tell your friend to verify the conversation and not tell your mother what you heard her say? Why did you even go to a bible meeting at all if you did not want the possibility of getting a bible? That's like asking the lion to not bite you and then sticking your hand in his mouth. How do you know someone else did not stick their hand out the window and the DS just thought it was you? These are all easily explainable and the biggest question I have is why do you jump to a supernatural conclusion instead of a reasonable one?
So this dark room in your mind, it sounds like you are describing brain states. Do you know what brain states are? I would like you to do some research on them and write something up here that explains brain states and how they function for reasoning, imagination, cognition and dreaming.
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Post by Forceuser on May 27, 2021 20:14:18 GMT
I will have to look that up maybe I didn't tell the story completely it happened at a friend's house not mine it was his mother and sister I never asked him to go ask his mother what happened he did it on his own. The reason I open the possibility of supernatural things happening it's because it always can't be the wind No matter how much I convinced myself that it is.
And you already know my story of when I was a kid when I was with a friend I kicked the ball up and in one direction about 15 to 20 feet And very long story short before it hit the ground I went into a trance and I saw in my mind the ball stop turn direction and go about a 150 to 200' like a laser beam and break out his window in his house. On doing that I pushed energy out of me .. Then 1 second later on that very calm Sunny day I came out of my trance and I was watching the ball come down from My short kick and stop a few feet before it hit the ground it did A180 and shot like a laser beam In a slight upward direction with no arching of the balls trajectory And it broke out his window in his garage exactly like I saw it happen in my mind.....
Yes I tried to justify it Maybe the wind maybe a car came down the street so fast that the wind from the car made it stop before it hit the ground And shoot in the opposite direction like a laser beam. I was even thinking maybe somehow it got a leak in it and the air coming out of it made the ball do that but then later we found the ball was fine. Maybe it was The heat waves coming off the asphalt road 50' away that caused the movement of the hot and cold air to make it do that. I've come up with a 1000 more explanations for it But I can't reproduce any of those in an experiment either so Im just throwing it on the table maybe it's supernatural.... Of course there's a million other explanations I know. But then what about all the other countless things that have happened? It could be that happened in Texas and you know they say everything is bigger in Texas maybe the wind is too?
No big deal just trying to share a few of the many experiences that I've seen most of them with other people. I know it's not based on reality so I will continue to focus in on accomplishing my goals
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Post by Forceuser on May 27, 2021 20:19:24 GMT
Sometimes I try to outdo myself So I was thinking it seems the wind and things are much bigger where I live And I'm thinking it's possible that it may help me accomplish my goals faster and bigger than other people.. If you can share out of all the people you've ever met in your whole life personally who has had the biggest goal set and actually accomplished what they said you don't have to tell me the person's name maybe just what was accomplished. I think it will inspire me to raise my bar
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Post by VixensVengeance on May 28, 2021 22:57:37 GMT
Why don't you use me?
My philosophy translates quite well to real living.
Two years ago I achieved a million in savings and owned my own home. I was a full time employee as a Project Manager for a major IT company. Upon achieving this milestone I sold my home and fulfilled a lifetime goal of buying a ranch in the black hills. There I have created an artists guild that has memberships now in 3 states. I have lived in a trailer for the past two years as I remodel the home and outbuildings. Together with my life partner we have created several studios including a wood shop, sewing, jewelry, metal working including a working coal forge, artistry design shop, glass works and beer making. artists come and go as needed for their work and we use our facilities to support the ranch. I supplement our income by taking contracting jobs as required in IT by working remotely as well. Summers are super busy for us attending fairs and artists events to sell our wares. We travel the country during those months. winters are for creating and we are also creating a fully self sustaining ranch that includes its own water supply and electricity soon. We currently have goats, chickens and bees and that is growing. We also maintain a garden in the summers and use that to sustain our food in the winter and we butcher our own cow each year for the past two years.
` For fun I am currently studying 3 different martial arts. TKD which I am a dark green belt in, Gumdo Sword which I am an orange belt in, and hapkido which I am a white belt in. I am also finishing up a second degree at university in Astrophysics, another live long goal of mine. I have more tech certs that I can name and have always created my own career path in this regard. I have also recently soloed a Cessna 170 aircraft and just need to finish my cross countries for my pilot’s license. I’m a master rated scuba diver with a rescue certification and dive as much as I can.
travel I have visited every state in the US including Alaska and Hawaii, where I lived for 3 years. I have been on 5 of the seven continents and am working on the other two which are Australia and Antarctica. I have been to Saudi Arabia, Bahrain, UAE, Egypt, Spain, Italy, Ireland, England, France as well as Japan, Philippines, Korea, and China. I have visited the pyramids, Stonehenge, medicine wheel, lived in the mountains and by the sea. I served in the US military for 10 years and have seen the brutality of combat I have lost friends to.
I currently also run my own real life and online SITH and spiritual group. I currently have one journier online (you) and 3 in real life that I partner with to achieve desirable goals. Plans for the group include creating our own gun range and observatory on our property over the next two years as well as a combat style obstacle course for our personal use.
I don’t know… is that enough?
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Post by VixensVengeance on May 29, 2021 17:01:28 GMT
I will have to look that up maybe I didn't tell the story completely it happened at a friend's house not mine it was his mother and sister I never asked him to go ask his mother what happened he did it on his own. The reason I open the possibility of supernatural things happening it's because it always can't be the wind No matter how much I convinced myself that it is. This is a curious statement. Why cant it always be a natural explanation like the wind? Or some other natural phenomena that is happening? What exactly is it that leads you to discount nature and jump to the conclusion of super-nature? I would like you to deeply consider this. It goes without saying that science cant answer every problem in the universe. But given this fact why fill in this gap with supernatural explanations that contain even less plausible answers than science itself? In many instances science does have an explanation that is just not known by the casual observer. For example the feeling a ghost is in the house could be the result of a little known phenomenon where people often experience a feeling of dread and the impression that they are being watched when exposed to low frequency sounds not detectable by the human ear. Stages of sleep and the different frequencies of our brain states also cause a lot of weird phenomena in the brain. People often experience hallucinations that include images accompanied by sounds such as footsteps and whispers. Also, in the transition from one stage to another, a combination of effects can happen, resulting in both hallucinations and paralysis. As well our memory is unreliable at best. Recall of any event is not a perfect process. We actually continually reproduce a memory in recall and that will change the memory over time. Some people would swear on their life that their supernatural experiences were real. But when they can't present a single thread of scientific evidence, it's best to treat such claims the way one does when one hears a man claim that he is the smartest person on the planet, or the best mechanic, or driver of a car. He may genuinely believe it, but others are under no obligation to view it as a fact. Consider how strange it is that we have all these advanced scientific instruments that can capture broader light spectrum's than the light visible to the human eye, and yet none of them can reproduce or detect any of these so called supernatural events.
As well, in over 100 years of rigorous testing, no individual has ever been able to reliably reproduce such effects or prove even the slightest idea that they actually exist. Given this fact is it really acceptable to turn to supernatural explanations? To say that you don't know how something happens and therefore a supernatural being or event must cause it, is simply lazy. It teaches you to ignore centuries of scientific progress and to believe whatever you want to believe despite a lack of evidence to support your belief. I dont want you to take a lazy approach to this problem. I want you to begin to think for yourself and stop hiding in fear of this idea. Learn to shed these thoughts in your life and you will then begin to make true progress toward your goals. I think you may find that for the first time in your life, this will be the sort of progress that is tangible and motivating that will produce great positive change in your life because it will be based on actual reality and true belief of your situation instead of an invented fantasy.
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Post by Forceuser on Jun 9, 2021 17:19:16 GMT
Wow that was a lot of information and a very very impressive list of accomplishments..... Thank you for sharing that with me....
When I went inside the gymnasium and asked to see who set the bar the highest..
I didn't realise you had already went on top of the building and set the bar up there.
I was totally looking in the wrong place .... I was looking inside the sports gymnasium I should have been looking higher toward the Sun
I have learned another lesson.... Thank you
It looks like on this stage of my Pyramid journey I need to wait 30 days and then explain what I did that's kind of what I'm doing right now.. I didn't disappear...
As far as the supernatural or let's call it paranormal stuff.. I do dwell on it way too much I'm realising that.. Even if 3 people at a time see The same thing I guess best case scenario even if it was real Some of the spiritual things we will never know until we die and see what happens then.
I'm really working hard on pushing those things out of my mind and focusing on the here and now and overcoming my fears and becoming who I really am.
I'm realising fear has controlled every aspect of my life since I was born... At Certain times I realise it has benefited me because fear can be used as a driving force which has driven me to do a lot in life . but then the rest of the time I guess it paralyses me in fear...
I will have to look when my 30 days is up but I will give an update on my progress.
To start my goals will be small as you will see especially compared to what you have done but I will gain momentum quickly
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Post by Forceuser on Jun 9, 2021 18:35:23 GMT
2D on my smart goal this one is pretty straightforward my goal is to lose 5 pounds Within 30 days Starting at 230 Main thing is I am basically going to do a modified keto diet Taking out sugars And most of my wheat and bread and starchy foods.
As far as what the term strength means to a Sith it means to achieve. and how it applies in everyday life. I think I have to break this down and it is different than power I think strength is more like endurance. That is 2 fold . the endurance part with the physical body and the endurance with our passions and goals. For example strength with the physical body is the ability to keep running or hiking for example you are going for a 5 mile run but after 3 miles you can't run anymore but you have the strength to keep moving forward and not stopping And soon you will be able to run again but never stopping this is the strength to finish the 5 miles..
As far as power and how that relates to the Sith in the modern world we'll call it. It also can have a dual meaning one is the power to overcome basically an adversary through physical strength or through the tools and weapons we possess. Secondly power is, let's call it. the influence we have overthings around us. if for example You say I'm going To rebuild a park And you ask others to join you and now you have a crew of people who will help you accomplish your goal that is the power to influence others.
My physical activity is going to be a little tough at 1st Mostly because of my time constraints and and Projects I'm working on. And I drive about 35 hours a week to and from work. I do love so many activities I would like to slowly start the martial arts again I was extremely involved when I was younger I like to hike. To be realistic for now in my goals I'm going to say set aside time to walk every weekend . These are my baby steps to start with I am glad at least I have started.
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Post by VixensVengeance on Jun 10, 2021 22:39:48 GMT
So please clearly describe your goal using this system.
Describe Specific goal Is it measurable Is it achievable (also is it challenging enough?) Is 5 pounds in 30 days a big enough goal? Is it a goal relevant to your passion? What is the timeframe? I.e. what is the deadline date to meet it.
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Post by Forceuser on Jun 11, 2021 0:29:48 GMT
Sounds good I will clarify on my goal It is indirectly because one of my goals is to get back in shape for Hiking. playing sports. camping. things like that. So indirectly It will help me tremendously and give me a boost in the right direction. I read up on the smart Guidelines on May 24th So figuring a 30 day challenge I give myself until June 24th That's unless I go crazy on my birthday June 20th... OK maybe 5 pounds was Not quite the ultimate challenge. Mostly because it looks like I will be going into a total different job field Then I have been working in the last 8 years with this one company. they are closing down. So I am forced to Push Myself into my job field I have been working on the side for years now... And because now I realise my whole life I have been in fear. I'm fighting the stress overload... And I did not want to embarrass myself. and I wanted to accomplish the goal that I set out to do even if it was a fairly easy one.
So I will bump up my challenge to 10 pounds so I must get down from 230 down to 220 by June 24th Ultimately my long-term goal is to get down to 200 lbs one goal at a time I don't want to get ahead of myself. Plus spending most of the last 8 months in Montana and going back-and-forth to Southern California was also a strain on my brain . The one nice thing about Montana over California is once you get an id there you can buy all kinds of toys that you can't get in California. OK I know it's not for this journal but that is one of my other goals. To move out of California
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